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onlytwilight) wrote2009-05-01 04:11 pm
onlytwilight) wrote2009-05-01 04:11 pm
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[When the post comes on, there's a few moments of silence and then somewhat erratic breathing.]
About...About how I acted... I'm sorry. I don't - I don't know why I was like that. I'm really sorry. [He pauses and sighs.] I'm...not sure how else to say it.
Riqis, Axel. Alex. I really am sorry.
I'll...I'll be over to pick up Rakuen soon, Konan. I'll bring him back before tonight, promise.
[There's a prolonged pause as he searches for the words to say, if there's anything else.] ...I'm sorry about this morning, Terra. And this whole week. I'm sorry.
[Private to Self | Unhackable]
I understood everything he said, everything he thought. I don't...even know where to begin with that. I remember what he - what I did. Every action, every thought, every word was mine.
So who's the real guilty party? Is that who I'm going to be?
He's right. I shouldn't exist. I'm a keybearer. I'm supposed to protect people, or help worlds, or...I don't know. Do something. Instead, I killed every other keybearer on that side. I destroyed them all. ...I hope that if that ever happens again, someone will destroy me before I do anything.
They didn't deserve what I did. He didn't deserve it. How am I supposed to fix this?
About...About how I acted... I'm sorry. I don't - I don't know why I was like that. I'm really sorry. [He pauses and sighs.] I'm...not sure how else to say it.
Riqis, Axel. Alex. I really am sorry.
I'll...I'll be over to pick up Rakuen soon, Konan. I'll bring him back before tonight, promise.
[There's a prolonged pause as he searches for the words to say, if there's anything else.] ...I'm sorry about this morning, Terra. And this whole week. I'm sorry.
[Private to Self | Unhackable]
I understood everything he said, everything he thought. I don't...even know where to begin with that. I remember what he - what I did. Every action, every thought, every word was mine.
So who's the real guilty party? Is that who I'm going to be?
He's right. I shouldn't exist. I'm a keybearer. I'm supposed to protect people, or help worlds, or...I don't know. Do something. Instead, I killed every other keybearer on that side. I destroyed them all. ...I hope that if that ever happens again, someone will destroy me before I do anything.
They didn't deserve what I did. He didn't deserve it. How am I supposed to fix this?
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wow way to make him feel better
Re: wow way to make him feel better
I thought you were...some other kind of replica.
But all the keyblades, how di- Well I guess I had one too, and I'd never died, so it should have been obviously possible, but-
...This...this...I hate this place! That the gods can just do that? Make us think we're someone el- no, no, just a different kind of ourselves? That's even worse!
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I don't want to talk about that. I don't. Please.
Sometimes things are good, and sometimes...well. We can't stop what they do. We just have to keep going and help each other.
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...How do we know when we can even trust each other, when even our memories and our whole...lives change into something so different!
Was it all an illusion? Did I really look like Riku looks now, to you?