voice;

[onlytwilight]

[When the post comes on, there's a few moments of silence and then somewhat erratic breathing.]

About...About how I acted... I'm sorry. I don't - I don't know why I was like that. I'm really sorry. [He pauses and sighs.] I'm...not sure how else to say it.

Riqis, Axel. Alex. I really am sorry.

I'll...I'll be over to pick up Rakuen soon, Konan. I'll bring him back before tonight, promise.

[There's a prolonged pause as he searches for the words to say, if there's anything else.]  ...I'm sorry about this morning, Terra. And this whole week. I'm sorry.


[Private to Self | Unhackable]

I understood everything he said, everything he thought. I don't...even know where to begin with that. I remember what he - what I did. Every action, every thought, every word was mine.

So who's the real guilty party? Is that who I'm going to be?

He's right. I shouldn't exist. I'm a keybearer. I'm supposed to protect people, or help worlds, or...I don't know. Do something. Instead, I killed every other keybearer on that side. I destroyed them all. ...I hope that if that ever happens again, someone will destroy me before I do anything. 

They didn't deserve what I did. He didn't deserve it. How am I supposed to fix this?

Comments

[todomarishi]

It wasn't... None of that was your fault. You don't have to apologize.

[onlytwilight.livejournal.com]

What I said and what I did to you... That was unacceptable.

[todomarishi]

You did nothing. That wasn't you.

[onlytwilight.livejournal.com]

Right.

[todomarishi]

It wasn't. That was just another of the gods' tricks.

[onlytwilight.livejournal.com]

Okay.

[todomarishi]

... You're stronger than this. You have to be.

[onlytwilight.livejournal.com]

You're not him either, Terra. You're not who was here.

[todomarishi]

I know that.

[onlytwilight.livejournal.com]

Alright.